"MOVED ON"

Yup, its time to moved on & forget all the bad memories from the past. i decide to moved on & start a new life as a real mom to my daughter. i've been so much crazy ass lately to the guy who makes my life crazy. i thought that i was only liked him but there is a love feeling inside & i only realize when he moved to the other country. he is a married guy actually w/ two (boys) kids & he got divorced b'coz of me (i think) but he admit that its his fault why he got divorce b'coz he played to much to other girls. i am so stupid too to be w/ him even i know that he is a married man. & these are one of my lessons in life.
For now, i am parenting to my turning two yrs old daughter & i'm trying to find a better job for her future. i'm not that really completely happy mom w/ her as long as she still a baby but yeah i am happy mom. i have no plan for the guys who wanted to come into my life. i will wait my right man for me if when is the time he come up to me. if there is a right man for me or not i will be happy for that both & i don't want to look for a guy that he is not the right one for me b'coz i'm afraid to involve to a married man again. one mistake is enough for me & i learned alot of lesson from that. i have avoidance NOW so guys.... GO AWAY.

I haven't update here for a long time..

OKAY...sorry for not active in blogs for how many months... i was having fun playing farmville game on fb & chatting to my former classmate in high school at the same time. there's nothing much happen to me for how many months. everything was going alright & i'm happy that my daughter TWINKIE is growing fast as a healthy bb. she's 1yr & 5mos now & finally she can walk now...yehey!!!...lol.
For now i'm still staying at home taking care of my daughter as usual & i'm happy for that but i really wanted to have a job that i could help my filipino boss for our some daily expenses. especially now that we are going to renew our immigration ID & we need some more money to give our sponsor & some staffs at the immigration. This is our life here in American Samoa, everytime when we renew our ID we need to work hard & save some money & give it to our sponsor. Living in this country with sponsor was really suck coz they always ask us a money. But as long as we live here we have to be more patient coz if not they don't renew our ID.
I have plan to moved back to philippines & i'm going to study in college but i don't know how. i need to have some education that i could find a job easily..that's my plan for now but i don't know how to start...

welcome 2010!

It's starting day of new year 2010... I just can't imagine that it's already year 2010, coz i came to samoa it was year 2004 so that it's my 6 yrs now living in samoa but my life was still the same, it changed a little bit last yr that my baby come to my life. And now my baby is already 7th mos. but she did not baptize yet.
Right now i'm planing to go to australia w/ my baby & i hope that i could get a australian visa. i want to live a real city & to feel the cold weither coz american samoa was really hot weither it like philippines...yeah that's my plan this yr hopefully it will be come true...

it's December!!!

i'm back....here are some photo's of twinky when she's five months... i just finish decorate our christmas tree & i'm so excited to take her a pic w/ a christmas tree. well, as a mom w/ her i'm sooooo much & much happy that i see her growing up that i'm the one who taking care of her since birth. it's kinda hard to raise the baby like her that has no dad. but i am trying my best to be a good mom w/ her & i could raise her up in a good way that she respect me not only me to all people who love her specially to my boss family coz they are the one who helping me for everything...

but anyway, this is her she's very smiling baby a happy baby i mean.

& here is the second pic. i try to play w/ her to make her smile but too

bad she's sad coz she don't have gift yet.... hehehehe....

here is the third pic. i let her walk & it's her first time to step on the floor. she's still five months baby but she really love to walk w/ my support anyway...

there... she's smiling already coz i never stop playing w/ her & took her more pics w/ our christmas tree....she's turnning 6 months this coming december 17 & it's my 26 b-day this coming december 27 so yeah i'm so excited to celebrate my b-day w/ my pretty baby... i just wish that everything gonna be alright.......

this pic. she's w/ Gayle the daughter of my boss.... it's night here already & we're at store....Gayle was so much loving auntie or she usually want twinky to call her "memai" coz she said that auntie is kinda old so she make new generation....hehehe....

she look so sad.... i ask her why my baby & she respond me "ahhhh".....there's a time that she's moody like me hehehe....

i let her slept on her swing & she almost did not fit in here....by the way i remeber that she fell down in here on the time when she was three months but i'm happy that she's fine & no injured....maybe her angel catch her that's why she don't have any injured..






this is her, she's holding her feet & put in her mouth....i think all baby doing this...& i'm sure i did that when i was a baby...right?!

sometimes when i took her a pic her eyes get big....she scared the flash of the camera .... & yeah that's her she's still cute even got big eyes...hehehe...

bonding time w/ me... i was on my laptop doing playing game on facebook & blogging at the same time watch her. so i let her sit beside me & then she hug me & lay her head on my shoulder... how sweet baby!!!....

okay, this is my life now w/ my baby... i always stay at home all the time & taking care of her. i already have no time to go out w/ some friends specially the daughter of my boss our bonding is gone bcoz of my baby. i usually go out w/ Gayle before every saturday & sometimes her brother Ickie go w/ us.....right now i'm still confuse why is this happen to me & ask myself why god give me a baby w/out dad. what is his purpose why he give me a baby.... but i am a mom already so i have to accept everything. & trying to forget some stuff that i have to forget. only one thing that i never forget to have a baby w/ a married guy. coz i never expect that it's will be happen to us.

can you imagine, the guy is my boss & i'm just his nanny to his two kids. he is american guy & a lawyer. then he cheat her wife bocz he meet a sexy nanny...that's his reason why he like me coz i'm sexy.... i actually like him too coz he is cute guy.... it's more story about us but i have to short cut....so until here for now....see you next time if i have time....

tsunami in american samoa

this is pago-pago side our town here in samoa

this is what they call fale it's getting half: this is from leone villege at where we live now....

these are from pago side... the day after tsunami....